Yeah, I am really scared about the lupus stuff. Like I already am on immunosuppressants and on intravenous immunoglobulin, so two forms of immunomodulatory treatment, and I feel really terrible still. I can't take steroids as I have 3 diseases that cause neuropathy, too. I really think this is affecting me neurologically too, as I get suspicious headaches that I didn't get before and I get "brain fog". It's just really scary stuff, and I feel like my medical situation is out of control now and there's not a ton that can be done about it. There's not much I can do about it either, but I do see a rheumatologist on Thursday. I want my old life back, but that's not going to happen.